full to the brim with heartbreak. people around me, struggling silently; i can’t take away their pain. instead, my heart feels as if it is physically breaking thinking about them. it overwhelms me some nights.

i need a phone alert system for my brain, filtering through the spiral of painful thoughts about things i should be doing and how i’m not doing enough.

a strand of reminder texts interrupting my psyche:

reminder! it is not your job to fix everyone’s problems

reminder! your circle of control only extends so far

reminder! you ARE doing enough

reminder! boundaries – self care – self love

why is it so hard? the recent months it seems to be piling up like the never-ending mountain of clothing next to the washer and dryer. i’d give anything to just have ‘laundry’ on my to-do list at this point.